-Liz

Put up an act for so long I forgot who I was and started believing the person I pretend to be.

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I just received and sent two separate messages from people that I went to elementary school with.

I don’t think people understand the power of social media, how it affects our communication and how it affects our relationships.

Social media, unlike many recent trends or forms of communication, doesn’t hinder human communication-it strengthens it.

Liking a picture on Facebook of someone you haven’t spoken to in years leads to a wall post, which could lead to a private message which then leads to an exchange of phone numbers and all of a sudden you’re at your nearest coffee shop catching up on the last 15 years since third grade.

I may be rambling my way into oblivion but in this moment, I’m beyond thankful for a Facebook page, a blog page and a twitter page. Connecting me to you and you to me, our communication is simply a click away.

Saved Drafts.

Unsent. Unaddressed. Unspoken.

I just randomly went through my blog posts…Was I suffering from depression or something? 

In the words of Sammysoreal, Dearest Lizziee, 

In the words of Mactorious, cheer up buttercup, 

In the words of Sammysoreal again, shut the fuck up guy.

No seriously, Dear me of a few months (or few years) ago, wake up and shut up. You have nothing to complain about, nothing to be sad about and nothing to be mad about. Remember what you used to believe, in the words of Charlie Chaplain, Smile though your heart is aching and in the words of yourself right now, writing this public letter to yourself- shut up!

To my friends, I apologize, you are right- I haven’t been myself lately. Although at times I will sit in my room and cry spontaneously - bare with me, I’m still growing. Diva, you probably won’t read this, but with 15 seconds over the phone you managed to put in my place and remind me that my world shouldn’t be black, white and grey. 

To the me of tomorrow, when you feel like someone has turned out the lights on your life, step back, breathe and smile because at the end of the day, you know you’re blowing it out of proportion and being a raging stupid moody drama queen. 

Love always,

The better you.

Waiting to get away. Waiting to disappear. Waiting to be alone. Waiting to forget. Waiting to disconnect. Waiting to be okay. Waiting to come back.

It seems as though we’re always waiting but when will anything wait for you?

Weird dreams

So I’m walking through the Charles De Gaulle airport with Anna, she practically owns it since she’s in France like everyday…but anyways. Were walking through faster than the others (Hilary, Kris, Angelo, Hector and Sama). Andrew and Eric are already in new York and our flight is at 8…so we wall through and Anna and I are almost at the departure gate. So we see Chris brown walking into some place to use their computer but somehow Hilary has appeared and tries to take a picture from across the hallway. Chris brown somehow thinks that orange pants and a yellow shirt are easy on the eyes. I get nervous because I think Hilary is trying to assassinate Chris brown while he’s logging onto Facebook…then as we continue to walk…we see will walking in the opposite direction, he took the subway to get there. But we live in Toronto. I dont understand why wil was wearing all beige and had an earring though. So at this point I’m confused and all of a sudden I remember “oh shit, I dint think I have my boarding pass” so I stop and rip through my purse and all of a sudden this fairly large black man runs up to me yelling in French and puts a l Flash light to my eyes because he thinks I’m on some kind of drug. He starts to speak English but in my dream it’s still french…I tell him that I don’t have ID and he laughs so I tell him to search my purse. My sister is supposed to leave to Portugal in a few hours so I call my dad to bring my passport and boarding pass when he brings her. So all of a sudden I’m home and I get my passport and ID and boarding pass which is just a regular piece of paper.

Never have I paid any attention to Bob Marley but I read this today and stopped thinking. This may be the single greatest thing I have read. 

“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect – you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break – her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.”

- Bob Marley

The Cover Letter I will never send…

To Whom It May Concern, 

My name is Liza Haddad and I am a recent graduate from the University of Toronto’s Digital Enterprise Management and Professional Writing and Communications programs.   

This may be the most unorthodox and most unprofessional cover letter you will ever come across but this is who I really am. As a recent graduate, I do not have the 10+ years of experience many employers are looking for but one thing that I do have is passion. 

I am passionate about what I do, and take pride in the fact that I pour my soul into my work. My greatest skill is learning, because after all, my greatest form of experience is in being a student. I enjoy learning and am eager and excited to continue to learn in a positive environment like yours.

My wit, my initiative and my competitiveness define who I am. I am confident in myself that I can conquer any task given to me yet will never shy away from asking for help. I am and will always be a student.

Through my uniquely designed program, I was able to work in teams to develop various business, marketing and entrepreneurial plans. As well as creating business plans; the Digital Enterprise Management program also emphasized the importance of teamwork, ethics and corporate culture.

I am confident in my work ethic, quality of work and passion for learning and if given the opportunity I believe I would thrive in a firm like yours with a position that will aid in the firms growth while allowing me to apply my skill set and grow and further develop as well.   

Thank You for your time. 

regards, 

Liza Haddad

Do you ever think that maybe they put you down here to push a button every 108 minutes just to see if you would? That all of this, the computer, the button, it’s just a mind game? An experiment? 

Every… single… day…